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Your Existing Situation

“In a very inactive and stationary condition, yet conflict and disagreements keep the wheels in the head constantly turning. Looking for fulfilling relationships which are affectionate and understanding, yet settles for less.”

Your Stress Sources

“Unfulfilled hopes have left her feeling uncertain and even a little fearful about the future. Needs to feel secure and avoid further disappointment; fears she will be looked over, lose her position, or lose respect. Has little hope that things will get better in time and her negative attitude leads her to place impossible demands on others or to compromise or bargain.”

Your Restrained Characteristics

Emotionally demanding and will involve herself in close relationships but won’t get too involved or give too much of himself.

Conceited and is easily insulted. Holds back emotionally but is able to find satisfaction through sexual activity.

Conceited and is easily insulted. Holds back emotionally but is able to find satisfaction through sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective

“Feels that nothing can upset her or phase her and is constantly trying to prove that to herself and others. Believes she is better than any weakness. As a result of her beliefs, she comes across as harsh or severe to those around him, with an overbearing and arrogant attitude.”

Your Actual Problem

“Has been disappointed and let down, believes it is pointless to come up with new goals as they will most likely disappoint as well. Needs to be recognized and respected, but is worried about the future. Reacts by avoiding situations where she will be criticizes or others will attempt to influence her. Tries to take charge of the situation by controlling the details and strengthen her position. “

21.04.12
I want her to melt into me, like butter on toast. I want to absorb her and walk around for the rest of my days with her encased in my skin. I want.
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Cattell’s 16 Factor Test Results

Warmth ||||||||||||||||||||| 66%
Intellect |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82%
Emotional Stability ||||||||||||||| 42%
Aggressiveness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74%
Liveliness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74%
Dutifulness ||||||||||||||||||||| 66%
Social Assertiveness ||||||||||||||||||||| 66%
Sensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 58%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||||| 58%
Abstractness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74%
Introversion ||||||||| 26%
Anxiety ||||||||||||||||||||| 66%
Openmindedness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78%
Independence ||||||||||||||||||||| 62%
Perfectionism ||||||||||||||||||||| 62%
Tension ||||||||||||||| 42%

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06.11.11

She was alright in every way, content with her life, had everything she needed. But not a lover; she did not need one. She stood alone and was happy with it. Her independence made others admire her. She took care of others and she never gave others a second of doubt that she would not make it on her own. Years and months go by as she swam against the currents of her solitude. She was OK in every way.

But every now and then when she finally had time on her own, alone in her house, she would close her windows and doors, her curtains, turned out all the lights in the house so that the only visible luminescence that remained in the darkness was the LED display screen of that 30 year old CD player.

She broke down her walls, and bared herself to the soul. She listened, to that melancholic melody that was played. The melody that reminded her of that fateful day when she let it all go. Her happiness, her love, her happily-ever-after. The day she made the mistake of letting love slip out of her hands.

She danced naked in her room, with tears rolling like an endless river down her cheeks and onto her breast. Her fingers danced with the music and she wailed. She danced in the room as her memories of him appeared and vanished in front of her. She drank another sip of her wine. His image was getting clearer, and clearer, until he was a physical form in front of her, loving her; yet her drunken eyes could not see his face clearly. His embrace was cold. His hands, his lips, all iced. 

She cried happily in his arms, asked him questions that had always been on her mind. Yet no answer from his mouth, just smiles and kisses. She was too overwhelmed with love to care.

Then the music stopped. He vanished.

She cleaned herself up. She mopped her emotions up from the floor, dressed herself, cemented her walls back up. She collected her memories back from the CD player and locked it away in its old case. Safe and hidden.

She locked her love, her happiness, her feelings up behind her bullet-proof walls, and opened the curtains, turned on the lights, and opened the door.

No one else could touch her. 

And she was normal again. The iron rod that would never bend.

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Yann Tiersen << La Valse D'Amélie Soundtrack >> - Comptine D'un Autre Été: L'après Midi

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#Amelie #Comptine d'un autre ete : L'apres midi #I am OK #Loneliness #Piano #Solitude #Strength #Yan Tiersen #emotions #independent #la valse d'amelie #love #melancholy #memories #music #nostalgia #soundtracks

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ed: Piter Marx sent this to me. Directed by Kosai Sekine.

13.10.11
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day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry 

Thank you, for turning on the light 
Thank you, now you’re the parasite 
I didn’t think you had it in you 
And now, you’re looking like I used to! 

12.10.11
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#30 day song challenge #No Doubt #Sunday Morning #Music #Rock

Six. Individuality — Making friends with my bedroom walls.

What happened?

What happened to thinking for myself rather than agreeing to everything I hear? I hate it when I do that. Unstable. Ignorant. Unoriginal. 

Back to the days when I think about my own thoughts, and getting lost in this vicious cycle of agreeing and disagreeing, supporting and contradicting.

I want myself back.

10.10.11
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#Thoughts #reflection #bedroom

Five. Goodbyes (belated post)

found this in my drafts

why would i not post this?

The past week had been very eventful. Work report, saying goodbye a work, Stephs visit and seeing all my friends, and last nights surprise party which turned out I was a part of.

The past 4 months has been one of the best terms Ive spent in UW. I wish I could go back to the beginning of the term and live it all over again and waste less time watching netflix and youtube at home, and plan more things to do with everyone here. Joyce and Serena has made the biggest impact on me this term, girls who sees me in all my flaws and still love me from the inside out.

Thanks (:

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